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CONCERNING how dean has it confirmed earlier in s15 that his queercoded vampire "friend" commited suicide because he couldn't be with his "best friend." VERY CONCERNING that dean dies 11 eps later at the hands of queer vampires after he himself lost his "best friend." DAMNING how the script clarifies that yes, dean wouldn't die in the finale if cas were there. TROUBLING how that's similar to the finale. TROUBLING how dean's suicide plan in advanced thanatology seems to be to wait for a "reasonable" excuse to die while hunting. eg: seemingly doing okay and claiming that he's not gonna give up, he swears! only to suddenly give up mere days later the second death is on the table. WILD how that exactly mirrors dean in the finale. WILD how dean learned over the seasons to mask his suicidal feelings and pretend to be normal and even on his way to recovery just so that Sam (and mary) won't realize that he's planning on offing himself. INSANE how all that perfectly matches dean's final death (except this time he succeeds). INSANE that the first time we see dean try to kill himself is also the first time he cheats death wherein he is saved by the heart of a gay man and, consequently, dean feels like he doesn't deserve to live and decides to let a reaper take him.
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CRAZY how the biggest, most recent example of dean trying to kill himself was canonically about cas. CRAZY how the conditions of dean's death almost perfectly match the conditions that have canonically made him suicidal in the past.